How do I look?

How do I look? It can be a strange question but not for narcist people who like to be evaluated how perfect they are. Of course, I am expecting myself to be a nice person in front of you and hopefuly that is the real "I". I like friendship and my friends are the ones I can talk to in any kind of situations. I cannot imagine if I have no friends to whom I can share openly what is going on in my life. It can be a disaster for me. But...then I want to be "someone" for everybody. I do not want to hurt you, so I give you special attention. I like to do that with intention of course that you will do the same thing. It's very human I guess. But then it does not work sometimes. The more I want to be someone for everybody then I find myself as a slave of my affection. So the motivation is like "how do I look?". Experience is telling me that friendship is much more about art of relationship, how we connect each other. It involves feeling, affection, intimacy that blend together and create an energy to be more valuable in life. How do I look? Great. Amazing. Incredible. Fabulous.Wonderful. Magnificent. Terrific. Ehm......I hope so!

Lunar New Year

Between two balinese angels















It's just amazing having a very festive celebration with so many friends on Lunar New Year. In the cold weather, I spent my weekend with Francois, Valery and Deny attending fund raising's dinner for St. Therese School.

Happy Valentine!

In the name faithfulness, I would like to update my blog. Anyway today is valentine day but nothing special. I sent some greetings to my friends in Indonesia in a very short expression "happy Valentine guys!". Since I have been busy with philosophical and theological stuff "valentine" does not really make sense for me. I simply justify my common expression that everyday should be a valentine's day. Love each other that I believe as an art of life. Love is not just a feeling, it's a commitment to whom we love. We are challenged to love each other in long-life commitment. Commintment today has become a scary word for some people. Since we are preoccupied by invidualism, just forget about commintment. There are three different levels of love, eros, filia and agape. Eros refers to our common understanding of love, between man and woman that involves physical attraction. Filia refers to friendship, more public than eros. While Agape is the highest level of love. It's like love of mother to her daughter or son. Obviously, it's easy to talk about love but not to act upon it. I think every body has already experienced to love and to be loved. I do believe that we will be able to love if we are loved first. In spiritual life, that works so, the more we have capacity to experience the love of the Ultimate Being the more we will be able to love others. We are talking about real expereince here. Anyway Happy Valentine for everybody!

Taking a risk

I think life is about taking a risk and that's a choice as well. Some people want to make their lives so easy but then they do not develop or even move forward to the next step. I learn from my own experience this week. When I chose my classes, I was thinking that I would be able to manage my time properly. I need to be challenged to be focused on one thing. This week I the first class for all classes. All professors told me what we are going to do from now on. Ehm...all classes I have are quite demanding. I have to be familiar with technology we will be using....like online exam or quiz. I got all syllabus already and try to read over them. I have chosen my classes so I have to be responsible to do the best. I do believe that the more I familiarize the risk the more I will be mature. Risk is not something to be avoided. Since life is full of uncertainties, risk has become the thing that can challenge me. Also I have a dream to make kind of reflection on my study which is the way to integrate what I have done in the class with my real life situation. I have a dream.....

sup doneeh!!!!

"This Account Has Been Suspended

Please contact the billing/support department as soon as possible"

I was surprised when I found my shoutbox didn't work. What's going on Doneeh? I've checked some blogs, it seems all did not work properly. Doneeh for me is the best one for my shoutbox especially it enables me to reply to the comments directly. But....has it been really suspended? It's just my luck! I hope I'm gonna figure out why. Anybody wanna help me out?

February!

It's my first post in February. Actually I have more time to write down my story. But I don't know I'm just lazy to do that since I have new hobby with kind of puzzle namely Sudoku. It's pretty interesting to kill time with this puzzle. We just play with logic and mathematic. Ehm...now is February the shortest month within a year. Time is running and I dont even realize new semester is coming. Just be aware and familiar with new books, articles and so forth. For this coming semester I have to change my style of studying. I can't use anymore my old style which is trying to read all materials without sorting them out. I know it's just impossible to read all materials. I need to sort them out which readings are important and required. Considering my result last semester, I'm sure I will be able to do more this coming semester. The result is important but the process to achieve that result is more important. I am not what I have achieved, I am more than what I have achieved in my life. Now I have to check regularly my courses on line, to print out all materials and ream them directly. Good Luck everybody!